18102018 Diary

Source of annoyance:

- Heat allergic

- Uni study stress

- Not working

- Not perfect English skill

- Being away from family

- Not having a girlfriend

- The fact that I'm wasting time and money not doing anything worth.

- Taking time to be friendly with someone.

- Not doing regular exercise for myself.

- Not taking shower regularly because I'm lazy.

- Not preparing quality meal for 3 times everyday.

- Lack of communication with parents.

Things that makes me happy or just spending time for:

- Computer game

- Shopping

- Motorcycle

- Masturbation

- Drinking

- Watch Netflix or YouTube

- Sleeping

- Cooking

- Fix motorcycle

- Open up electronics

- DIY stuff

- Technology including computers, smartphones.

- YouTube video making

Just suppress all I like and do study doesn't work for me. It doesn't resolve actual problem. I feel like I'm kind of out of control so ASAP I'll go back to Korea and hope for some changes.